I just got a copy of my cover design for my “Prissy Book” as we always called it. I really like it and I know you would have to. I wish you were still here to share in all this. I know spiritually you are, but I wish you were here physically to share it all with me. I miss your hugs and your smiles so much.
I was just thinking about how awesome it would have been to babysit our first grandchild together. You wanted to have grandchildren so much. It’s something we will never get to experience together, but I will do it for both of us. And our grandchild(ren) will know all about Papa Randy.
I told Fr. Andy how lost I am without you and how unsure I am of who I am supposed to be now. He told me through my tears that it’s true when the Bible says “the two shall become one flesh”. He said in a marriage as strong as ours, we did become one and it’s natural to feel lost, even this long after.
I know you are proud of me. I am trying to move on. I am trying to be strong and be the head of the family now. A new generation will soon be entering our family. I don’t know what God has in store for me and my future. I do know that he has put a desire in my heart to write for children and maybe even adults. I have to follow this personal ministry.
This probably seems like rambling .It’s sort of the way I feel today.
Love you forever,