Lacey went back to school yesterday. Mindy was married last week. Yesterday was the first day I was alone to start my single life. Last night was the first night I slept alone in the house.(Well, I had my puppy.) I was sort of in limbo since Randy died because Mindy was living at home until she married. I had not yet experienced the “alone” time of being a widow. (I have such a difficult time calling myself that.) There is sort of an eerie quietness in the house that I am not used to. I went to the cemetery yesterday and had a “talk” with Randy. I told him that I know I need to go on, but I feel so guilty doing so. All the plans for the future included the two of us. It was never supposed to be just me. At least not in my plans. But I know it’s not about my plans. It’s about the plan God has for me and my life. I pray in time the feeling of guilt will begin to subside. I miss you Ran !